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그냥 하나정도 써주는 느낌?
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한 물건이 있어
컴퓨터가 되기도 하고,
키보드가 되기도 하며,
화면속의 세계가 되기도 하고,
투닥투닥 소리로 되기도 한다.
만상을 담고 있는 구슬같음에
구슬이 아닌 이 한물건은
바라보는 이가 있는것 같으나,
바라보는 이가 실재하지 않는다.
바라보는 이가 실재하지 않는
이 한물건이 어디서 나타났단 말인가.
바라보는 이 없는 한물건은
있음이로되 있지 않으니
근원을 알수 없는 신비로 가득 차있다.
더 가야할 곳이 가야할 곳이 있지 않다는 것을 볼때.
현 없는 악기에서 들리는 노랫소리를 듣는 이는
누구인가요?
한마음 한생각으로 세계를 일으키니
세계가 마음이고 그것이 알려질 때,
마음으로 이루어진 세계를 알고있는 이는 누굴까요?
나를 이곳에 있도록 한 사랑과
내가 이곳에 매이지 않게 하는 본래의 자유.
그것이 다가온적 없는 신비로 다가오는데.
이 신비를 당신은 알고 있나요?
마치 거울과도 같이 당신이 이 세계를 비추이나,
세계를 비추이는 거울같은 것이 없다는 것을 알때,
말로 다 할 수 없는 이 마음이.
알 수 없는 근원으로부터 가득이 흘러넘친다는것을
알고 있나요?
얻었어도 얻은 바도, 얻어야 할것도 없음에,
노래하는이 없는 노래는
꾸는 이 없는 꿈속으로 울려퍼집니다.
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스승께서 대답하셨다.
"오래 전,
수많은 생명이 거대한 강바닥에 마을을 이루고 살았느니라. "
" 물살은 어린 자와 늙은 자, 부유한 자와 가난한 자,
선한 자와 악한 자를 말없이 휩쓸어 갔도다.
강물은 수정처럼 맑은 자신의 길을 갈 뿐이었다."
"저마다 강바닥의 수초나 바위에 나름대로 매달렸다.
매달리는 것이 그들의 생존방식이었고,
태어날 때부터 물살에 저항하는 것을 배웠으므로."
마침내 한 생명이 말했다.
"매달려 있는데 지쳤다. 내 직접 볼수는 없지만,
강물은 자기가 어디로 가는지 알고 있으리.
강물이 흐르는 대로 따라 가리라.
계속 매달려 있다면 지루해서 죽으리."
다른 이들이 그를 비웃으며 말했다.
"어리석은 자여!
손을 놓으면 물살이 너를 바위에 내던져 가루로 만들리라.
지루해서 죽는 것보다 더 빨리 죽으리라. "
" 하지만 그는 다른 이들의 경고를 무시하고는,
숨을 크게 들이쉰다음 강물에 몸을 맡겼다.
그 즉시 물살에 휩쓸려 바위에 부딪혔다. "
" 시간이 지나도 그가 다시 매달리지 않자,
강물은 그를 들어 강 바닥에서 놓아주었다.
그는 더 이상 멍들지도 상처입지도 않았다. "
강 아래 생명들이 이방인인 그를 보고 외쳤다.
"기적을 보라! 우리와 똑같은 생명이 날고 있다!
우리를 구원할 메시아를 보라!'"
그는 물살에 떠내려가며 말했다.
"나는 너희와 똑같이 메시아가 아니다.
용기를 내어 몸을 맡기기만 하면 강은 자유를 주노니.
우리의 진정한 임무는 이 여행, 이 모험이다. "
.....
-리처드 버크 일루전 중
출처:
http://www.kapalabhatiyoga.com/chbr/chbr_view.php?mo=chyg03&uid=21&page=1&keyword=
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Psychoanalysis
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Psychoanalysis is a family of psychological theories and methods that work to elucidate connections among unconscious components of patients' mental processes, and to do so in a systematic way through a process of tracing out associations. In classical psychoanalysis, the fundamental subject matter of psychoanalysis is the unconscious patterns of life as they become revealed through the analysand's (the patient's) free associations. The analyst's goal is to help liberate the analysand from unexamined or unconscious barriers of transference and resistance, that is, past patterns of relatedness that are no longer serviceable or that inhibit freedom. More recent forms of psychoanalysis seek, among other things, to help patients gain self-esteem through greater trust of the self, overcome the fear of death and its effects on current behavior, and maintain several relationships that appear to be incompatible.
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History
Psychoanalysis was first devised in Vienna in the 1890s by Sigmund Freud, an M.D. interested in finding an effective treatment for patients with neurotic or hysterical symptoms. As a result of talking with these patients, Freud came to believe that their problems stemmed from culturally unacceptable, thus repressed and unconscious, desires and fantasies of a sexual nature, and as his theory developed, he included desires and fantasies of an aggressive nature, as well. Freud considered these aspects of life instinctive drives, libidinal energy/Eros and the death instinct/Thanatos. Freud's description of Eros/Libido included all creative, life-furthering instincts. The Death Instinct represented an instinctive drive to return to a state of calm, or non-existence. Since Freud's day, psychoanalysis has developed in many ways especially as a study of the personal, interpersonal and intersubjective sense of self.
Prominent current schools of psychoanalysis include ego psychology, which emphasizes defense mechanisms and unconscious fantasies; self psychology, which emphasizes the development of a stable sense of self through mutually empathic contacts with other humans; Lacanian psychoanalysis, which integrates psychoanalysis with semiotics and Hegelian philosophy; analytical psychology, which has a more spiritual approach; object relations theory, which stresses the dynamics of ones relationships with internal, fantasized, others; interpersonal psychoanalysis, which accents the nuances of interpersonal interactions; and relational psychoanalysis, which combines interpersonal psychoanalysis with object-relations theory. Although these schools have dramatically different theories, most of them continue to stress the strong influence of self-deception and the effects of past relationships on present relationships.
A few of the most influential psychoanalysts are Sigmund Freud, Sandor Ferenzci, Carl Jung, Melanie Klein, Heinz Hartmann, David Rapaport, Ernst Kris, Jacques Lacan, Donald Winnicott, Margaret Mahler, Theodor Reik, Harry Stack Sullivan, Heinz Kohut, Slavoj Zizek, Otto Kernberg, Charles Brenner, Roy Schafer, and Stephen A. Mitchell.
Techniques
The basic method of psychoanalysis is the transference and resistance analysis of free association. The patient, in a relaxed posture, is directed to say whatever comes to mind. Dreams, hopes, wishes, and fantasies are of interest, as are recollections of early family life. Generally the analyst simply listens, making comments only when, in his or her professional judgment, an opportunity for insight on the part of the patient arises. In listening, the analyst attempts to maintain an attitude of empathic neutrality, a nonjudgmental stance designed to create a safe environment. The analyst asks that the analysand speak with utter honesty about whatever comes to awareness while interpreting the patterns and inhibitions that appear in the patient's speech and other behavior.
A general rule of thumb in psychoanalytic treatment is that more insight-oriented techniques are to be used with healthier patients, whereas more supportive techniques are to be used with more disturbed patients. The most common example of an insight-oriented technique is an interpretation, in which the analyst delivers a comment to the patient that describes one or more cluster of unconscious wishes, anxieties, and defenses. An example of a supportive technique might be reassurance, in which the analyst tries to lower the patient's level of anxiety by assuring her that what she fears will not come to pass, or will be manageable. Analysts usually prefer to make more insight-oriented interventions when possible, as they feel that such interventions are generally the least judgmental, because when done correctly they simply describe what is going on in the patient's mind.
Although psychoanalytic techniques have sometimes been adapted to treatment of psychosis (with great effort and major sacrifice on the part of the analyst), psychoanalysis is generally thought by analysts to be useful as a method in cases of neurosis and with character or personality problems. Psychoanalysis is believed to be most useful in dealing with ingrained problems of intimacy and relationship and for those problems in which established patterns of life are problematic. As a therapeutic treatment, psychoanalysis generally takes three to five meetings a week and requires the amount of time for natural or normal maturational change (three to seven years).
Much recent psychoanalytic work has been devoted to exploring the use of psychoanalytic principles and techniques in shorter face-to-face psychodynamic psychotherapy, and integrating psychoanalysis with other psychotherapeutic techniques such as those of cognitive behavior therapy. Empirical research on the efficacy of psychoanalysis and psychoanalytic psychotherapy has also become prominent.
Training
Throughout the history of psychoanalysis, most psychoanalytic organizations have existed outside of the university setting, with a few notable exceptions.
Psychoanalytic training usually occurs at a psychoanalytic institute and may last approximately 4-10 years. Training includes coursework, supervised psychoanalytic treatment of patients, and personal psychoanalysis lasting 4 or more years.
Most psychoanalytic institutes require that applicants already possess a graduate degree. Applicants usually have degrees in clinical social work (MSW or DSW), clinical psychology (PhD or Psy.D), or medicine (MD). A small number of institutes also accept applicants who have graduate degrees in nonclinical disciplines, such as literature or philosophy.
Other definitions
Psychoanalysis is:
- A therapeutic technique for the treatment of neurosis.
- A technique used to train psychoanalysts. A basic requirement of psychoanalytic training is to undergo a successful analysis.
- A technique of critical observation. The successors and contemporaries of Freud—Carl Jung, Alfred Adler, Wilhelm Reich, Melanie Klein, Wilfred Bion, Jacques Lacan, and many others—have developed Freud's theories and advanced new theories using the basic method of quiet critical observation and study of individual patients and other events.
- A body of knowledge so acquired.
- A clinical theory. See, for example, "Ordinary Language Essentials of Clinical Psychoanalytic Theory" by Wynn Schwartz.
- A movement, particularly as led by Freud, to secure and defend acceptance of the theories and techniques.
Psychoanalysis involves extended exploration of the self, a realization of the Delphian motto, "Know thyself". In this it resembles the extended meditative practices of Buddhist monastic schools such as Zen. If successful, it gives a person the capacity to be present in the moment, responding authentically to circumstances, being free of infantile responses inappropriate to the situation.
Today psychoanalytic ideas are imbedded in the culture, especially in childcare, education, literary criticism, and in psychiatry, particularly medical and non-medical psychotherapy. Though there is a mainstream of evolved analytic ideas, there are groups who more specifically follow the precepts of one or more of the later theoreticians.
Psychoanalyses in groups
Though the most commonly held image of a psychoanalytic session is one in which a single analyst works with a single client, 'group' sessions with two or more clients are not unknown. Carrying out psychoanalysis in groups can be motivated by economic factors (individual analysis is time-consuming and expensive) or by the belief that clients may benefit from witnessing the various client-client and analyst-client interactions. In most forms of group-based analysis, the group is initially an artefact created by the analyst selecting the various members; the assumption is that the common relationship to the analyst will lead to the formation of a genuine group situation. Group psychotherapy of 'natural' groups (e.g. of whole families) seems to be a relative rarity.
Cultural Adaptations
Psychoanalysis can be adapted to different cultures, as long as the therapist or counseling understands the client’s culture. For example, Tori and Blimes found that defense mechanisms were valid in a normative sample of 2,624 Thais. The use of certain defense mechanisms was related to cultural values. For example Thais value calmness and collectiveness (because of Buddhist beliefs), so they were low on regressive emotionality. Psychoanalysis also applies because Freud used techniques that allowed him to get the subjective perceptions of his patients. He takes an objective approach by not facing his clients during his talk therapy sessions. He met with his patients’ where ever they were, such as when he used free association—where clients would say whatever came to mind without self-censorship. His treatments had little to no structure for most cultures, especially Asian cultures. Therefore, it is more likely that Freudian constructs will be used in structured therapy (Thompson, et al., 2004). In addition, Corey postulates that it will be necessary for therapist to help clients develop a cultural identity as well as an ego identity. Since Freud has been criticized for not accounting for external/societal forces, it seems logical that therapist or counselors using his premises will work with the family more. Psychoanalytic constructs fit with constructs of other more structured therapies, and Firestone (2002) thinks psychotherapy should have more depth and involve both psychodynamic and cogitative-behavioral approaches. For example, Corey states, that Ellis, the founder of Rational Emotive Behavioral Therapy (REBT) would allow his clients to experience depression over a loss, such an emotion would be rational—often people will be irrational deny their feelings. Since Freudian constructs can fit with other psychotherapeutic and counseling approaches, it can also be adapted to a variety of cultures, but it can not be employed in its widest use as Freud and Firestone would advocate (Firestone, 2002; Tori and Blimes 2002,).
Adaptations for age and managed care
Play Therapy for different ages
Psychoanalytic constructs can be adapted and modified to both age and managed care through the use of play therapy such as art therapy, creative writing, Sand Tray Therapy, storytelling, bibliotherapy, and psychodrama. In the 1920's, Anna Freud (Sigmund Freud's daughter) adapted psychoanalysis for children through play. Using toys and games, she was able to enhance relationship with the child - Freud has been criticized for his, objective and disengaged, approach. When children play, they often engage in a make believe world where they can express their fears and fantasies, and they do so without censorship, so it resembles very much the technique of free association. Psychoanalytic play therapy allows the child and the counselor to access material in the unconscious, material that was avoided and forgotten. This material is re-integrated into the conscience, and the counselor is able to work with the child and the family to address the trauma or issue that was forgotten. With adults, the term art therapy is used, instead of play, however they are synonymous. The counselor simply adapts art therapy to the age of the client. With children, a counselor may have a child draw a portrait of his self, and then tell a story about the portrait. The counselor watches for re-occurring themes - regardless of whether it is with art or toys. With adults, the counselor may work one on one or in a group and have clients do various art activities like painting or clay to express themselves - toys here would not probably not be age appropriate, and children stop pretend play as they transition into adolescence. Since play is considered appropriate in Occidental (Western) culture, it allows people to deal with personal/social issues that they would normally avoid - it allows them to drop their defenses without anxiety and fear.
Other play therapy techniques
Bibliocounseling involves selecting stories from books that children can identify with (similar issues). Through this story, a child will be more likely to not feel defensive and will work to find alternative solutions to problems. Storytelling is similar, the counselor may tell a story but not use a name, and instead he may address the child with each new sentence using his name. For example, He may say, "next, Eric, the little boy had dream about a mouse that was not like the other mice..."
Play therapy for managed care
Unlike traditional psychoanalysis, play therapy takes much shorter time span; which allow insurance companies to cover it for their clients. Even more, it provides more structure to the process allowing for specific measurable goals. Psychoanalytic theory will be applied in more preventative ways, such as educating parents on how to best meet the needs of the child and enhance the child's development and growth. Lastly, more advocates may use homework assignments such as journal writing to save time (Thompson et al., 2004).
Expressive writing for managed care
According to a book, review by Berman (2003) the writing cure provides an analysis of research that supports expressive writing as a way to integrate cognitions and work through trauma. People who write about traumatic events experience more self control. The Writing Cure offers new, cost-effective ways to treat clients; clients can even use expressive writing to work through their own personal/social issues.
Criticisms
Psychonalysis has been criticized on a variety of grounds by Karl Popper, Adolf Grünbaum, Peter Medawar, Ernest Gellner, Frank Cioffi, Frederick Crews, and others. Popper argues that it is not scientific because it is not falsifiable. Grünbaum argues that it is falsifiable, and in fact turns out to be false. Exchanges between critics and defenders of psychoanalysis have often been so heated that they have come to be characterized as the Freud Wars.
Some defenders of psychoanalysis suggest that its logics and formulations are more akin to those found in the humanities than those proper to the physical and biological sciences, though Freud himself tried to base his clinical formulations on a hypothetical neurophysiology of energy transformations. By the 1970's, psychoanalytic writers like Roy Schafer and George Klein treated psychoanalysis as two separate theories, one, a theory of energy transformations that lacked empirical validation and the other, an "experience-near" theory of human intentionality that was philosophically independent of the reductionism and determinism of 19th century science as seen in the works of Helmholz and Hobbes. Reductionism and determinism were recognized as contrary to the clinical methods and goals of psychological liberation. Psychoanalysis as a collection of clinical theories was recast as a theory of interpretation and development with a focus on understanding how the varieties of nonconscious dispositions and actions influence a person's life in the form of transference and resistance.
A related early criticism of psychoanalysis was that its theories were based on little quantitative and experimental research, and instead relied almost exclusively on the clinical case study method. This criticism has been addressed by an increasing amount of psychoanalytic research from academic psychologists and psychiatrists who have worked to quantify and measure psychoanalytic concepts.
Psychoanalysts have often complained about the significant lack of theoretical agreement among analysts of different schools. Many authors have attempted to integrate the various theories, with limited success. In this regard, psychoanalysis is similar to the related discipline of psychology.
An important consequence of the wide variety of psychoanalytic theories is that psychoanalysis is difficult to criticize as a whole. Many critics have attempted to offer criticisms of psychoanalysis that were in fact only criticisms of specific ideas present only in one or more theories, rather than in all of psychoanalysis.
Although the popularity of psychoanalysis was in decline during the 1980's and early 1990's, prominent psychoanalytic institutes have experienced an increase in the number of applicants in recent years. link to article
References
- Berman, J. (2003). [Review of the book The writing cure: How expressive writing promotes health *and well-being. [Electronic version]. Psychoanalytic psychology, 20(3), 575-578.
- Corey, G. (2001). Theory and practice of counseling and psychotherapy. (6th ed.). Belmont, CA: Brooks/Cole Thompson Learning
- Firestone, R.W. (2002). The death of psychoanalysis and depth therapy. [Electronic version]. Psychotherapy: Theory, Research, Practice, and Training, 39(3), 223-232.
- Kramer, Peter D., Listening to Prozac : A Psychiatrist Explores Antidepressant Drugs and the Remaking of the Self ISBN 0670841838.
- Luhrmann, T.M., Of Two Minds: The Growing Disorder in American Psychiatry ISBN 0679421912.
- Thomson, C.L, Rudolph L.B., & Henderson, D. (2004). Counseling children. (6th ed.). Belmont, CA: Brooks/Cole Thompson.
- Tori, C.D. & Blimes, M. (Fall 2002). Cross-cultural and Psychoanalytic Psychology: The Validation of defense measure in an Asian population. [Electronic version]. Psychoanalytic psychology, 19(4), 701-421.
- Psychoanalytic Theory: An Introduction by Anthony Elliott, an introduction that explains psychoanalytic theory with interpretations of major theorists [1]
- The Psychoanalytic Movement: The Cunning of Unreason, by Ernest Gellner. A critical view of Freudian theory. ISBN 0810113708
Critiques of psychoanalysis
- Erwin, Edward, A Final Accounting: Philosophical and Empirical Issues in Freudian Psychology ISBN 0262050501
- Gellner, Ernest, The Psychoanalytic Movement: The Cunning of Unreason. A critical view of Freudian theory. ISBN 0810113708
- Grünbaum, Adolf, The Foundations of Psychoanalysis: A Philosophical Critique ISBN 0520050177
- Macmillan, Malcolm, and Frederick Crews, Freud Evaluated: The Completed Arc ISBN 0262631717
External links
- A Glossary of Freudian Terms
- Abstracts of the Psychological Works of Sigmund Freud
- Sigmund Freud - Life and Work
- International Psychoanalytical Studies Organization
- International Psychoanalytical Association
- The International Association for Relational Psychoanalysis and Psychotherapy
- The American Psychoanalytic Association
- The New York Psychoanalytic Society & Institute
- Essays about the pros and cons of psychoanalysis
- [2] website of the William Alanson White Institute
See also
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지금 이 블로그를 시작하는 것은 나에게 상당히 큰 의미를 지닌다.
오랫동안 방치해뒀던 집을 다시 한번 들어오는 느낌이다.
오랫동안 다른 일을 했고, 그 일을 하는 동안 사람들이 '나'라고 부르는 이는 많이 바뀌었다.
이 블로그를 쓰지 않게 되기 전까지의 이름은 청광이었지만, 지금은 또 어느새 일명으로 바뀌었다.
지금에 이르러 글을 쓰게 되면 분명 전과는 다른 방식으로 글을 쓰게 될것이다.
무엇이 될지는 좀 잘 모르겠다.
이 블로그는, 수행과 명상에 대해 사용하는 블로그와 다르게 전문적으로 공부와 학문을 중심으로 하는
블로그가 될 것이다. 그래서 독서라던지, 공부하는 내용을 중점적으로 올릴것이며,
내가 사용하기 위해 사용하는 블로그가 될 것이다.
이 블로그에 어떤 이가 들락날락거리건은 이젠 별 문제가 되지 않는듯 하다.
다만, 한 가지 지금은
무소의 뿔처럼 홀로 갈 때가 왔다는 것이다.
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무중력 상태의 우주를 유영하듯
이리저리 떠돌며 파문처럼 흩어진다.
생각과 생각은 도처에 틈이 가득하건만,
사람들은 사물과 사물사이의 허공을 알지 못하는것처럼
생각과 생각 사이의 틈에 머물지 못하고
이리저리 생각에 끌려다니며,
생각을 나라고 착각하며 생각속에 빠져 산다.
아 그 누가 있어서, 생각이 없이 바라볼 수 있으며
그 누가 있어 자신의 존재를 삭제해버릴수 있는가.
불법은 일체 중생의 마음을 제도하기 위한것
허공의 틈새에 머무르며, 중을 잡아 화를 이루니
마음이 없는 그 이를 만나, 부처 찾기 그만두리.
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하지만, 곰곰히 생각하다보니 정작 깨달음이 무엇인지를 알 수 없어서. 이번엔 죽어라고 공부를 했다. 불교의 경전들을 보고 이슬람 수피들의 어록을 읽고 깨달았다고 하는 이들을 찾아가서 물어보고 물어보고 유 불 도 삼가를 넘어서 이슬람 수피 조로아스터교 요가 선도 현대 명상가들이 무엇을 겪었는지에 대해 죽어라고 조사하고 조사한 끝에 내린 결론은.
깨달음이라는 것은 모든것은 실재하지 않는것 을 알고 자신의 본래 면목을 보는것이다.
라고 결론을 내렸다.
하지만, 대각을 얻은 이의 초인적인 행적을 실재로 바라보면서 분명 대각에는 뭔가 있긴 있을것이다. 라는 실날같은 희망을 걸면서 모든것을 알고 모든것을 행할수 있는 어떤 전능함으로 갈 수 있는 열쇠가 있을것이라고 항상 생각했었다.
그렇게 계속 그것을 깨달은 이의 곁에서 1년여를 기다렸던것 같다.
그러다 알게 된 것은. 그분 뿐만이 아니라 그분의 동생도 깨달음을 얻어 서로는 7년간 만나서 깨달음의 상태에 대해 서로 피튀기며 토론했고. 유명한 선사들은 저리가라 할정도로 어떤 단련과정을 거쳤다고 한다.
그래서 그들은 결론을 내린것이.
깨달음이라는것은 1. 개인적인것이고. 2. 모든것이 실재하지 않는것을 아는것이며. 3. 깨달음이라는것을 통해 어떤 권위나 우월감을 갖고 그것을 통해 다른 사람들을 미혹시키는것은 옳지 않다. 4. 그것은 노력한다고 해서 이루어지는것도 노력하지 않는다고 해서 이루어지지 않는것이 아니다. 5. 깨달음을 얻어도 남은 생애동안은 살아야 하고, 완전한 죽음에 이르기까진 시간이 필요하기에, 결국 살아가야 한다.
라고 하는 것이었다.
오늘 결국 그러한 깨달음이라고 하는것의 진실에 대해 들을수 있었고. 결국 내가 찾아다닌것이 그런것이라는것을 알게 되었다.
처음에 그 사실을 어렴풋이 짐작하고 있었지만, 그것을 알게 되고나서 역시 좌절했었다.
나는 삶에 있어서 불만족스러웠고 항상 그것을 찾아 아주 어린시절부터 계속 그것을 찾아다녔던것 같다. 하지만. 결국 그것이 그런것이라는 사실을 들었을때 나는 좌절하는수밖에 없었다.
나는 그 깨달음을 얻으면 모든것이 끝날것이라고 생각했고, 더 이상 내게 그 이후가 없을것이라고 생각했다. 하지만 깨달음은 영원한 죽음도 마지막도 아니며, 다만 '시작'일 뿐이다. 정말로.
그리고 두번째로. 나는 깨달음을 얻으면 모든것이 해결될줄 알았지만, 결국 내 자신이 살아가야 하는 문제만이 남았다. 결국 내가 깨달음을 통해 '이루고 싶었던 일'이나 '알고 싶었던것'은 내 자신이 다시 생각하고 찾아서 이루어야 한다는것이다. [물론 그것을 좀더 쉽게 얻을수 있긴 있을것이다.]
결국 내 자신이 내 자신에게 솔직하게 내가 왜 여기까지 왔고, 내 삶에 이런 시련들이 찾아왔을까는 깨달은뒤에도 계속 내 자신을 따라 다닐것이라는것이다.
그렇기 때문에 결론적으로 말해.
나는 내 자신에게 물어야 한다.
내 자신만이 답을 줄 수 밖에 없다.
내 자신은 실재하지 않는데, 대체 난 왜 여기서 무엇을 찾아 그다지도 헤메이고 있는지, 왜 여기까지 내 자신이 오게 되었는지...
- 2006/12/07 18:42
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2. 내면과 외면
3. 본체와 작용
4. 공간과 시간
5. 萬物->一體
6. 無我와 眞我
7. 행위와 관조
이 일곱가지 문제를 명확히 이해하면 형이상학을 통해 표현되고자 하는 이치가 표현된다.
그노시즘이던, 라마크리슈나던 크리슈나무르티던 선도던 무엇이던.
동서고금의 수양론과 형이상학이 함께 돌아갈 수 있는것은 이 일곱가지 문제가 함께 걸려들기 때문이다.
이것이 비밀 아닌 비밀이고.
이것의 해결은 결국 이것이 글 속의 이치가 아니라
실제로 이것을 내가 확인하여.
글 너머의 실체를 알 수 있을때 풀린다.
- 2006/12/07 18:34
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사실 요즘 관심사가 수행과 철학 그 두가지로 모아지다보니 생긴 귀결인지도 모르겠다.
만물일체에 관한 논문을 하나 쓰게 되면서 수피즘,라마크리슈나,선도,양명학 등의 형이상학에 대해 상쾌하게 정리가 되어버리니까 왠간한 형이상학은 보아도 보아도 어디에서 무슨 문제가 생기는지 문자상으로는 상당히 명쾌하게 풀리게 되어버렸다.
이런식으로 수행과 형이상학을 하나하나 같이 풀어나가다보니 남는건 정말 '어떻게'의 문제라기보단 '시간'의 문제와 완숙의 문제밖에 남게되지 않는것 같다.
내게 필요한건 결국 내 자신에 대한 이해. 그리고 세계가. 타인이 나 자신과 둘이 아니라는 것을 확인하는 것. 그것 말고는 남지 않았고. 그것을 기점으로 마침표가 찍힐 것이다.
한해동안 여러가지 일들이 일어났고. 나는 올해가 지나면 처음으로 대학교 2학년이 된다.
내년 한해는 더욱 더 큰 사건속에 휘말려들 것 같고. 서서히 역사의 현장에 뛰어들지도 모르겠다.
드라마틱한 삶을 바래왔고, 그러한 삶을 살게 되었고.
인자는 서서히 그러한 삶을 끝맺을 준비를 해야 할것이다.









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